From Under the Rubble

Christmas is OVER and I am enjoying this post-Christmas lag when I don’t even have to know what the date is and there is nothing pressing on my schedule.   It may actually be one of my favorite weeks of the entire year. It was a good holiday.   There was some normal pre-Christmas Day sadness leading up to it that’s just loss/grief related.   I’ve come to expect that.   But Christmas itself was fine.   That first year after he died I couldn’t wait to tear down all the decorations and be done with it all.   But by now I’m in no hurry.   Which is probably good this year because I can’t take down the tree until I get myself to Walmart and buy a big tree storage tub for it. Today the girls have some friends over and I am painting my kitchen (yes, I know – there is a touch of me that is crazy - I ended up tackling a sink full of dirty dishes in-between paint coats, too) and working on some other chores. I recently decided that my kitchen is too dark.   I toyed with the idea of

Wednesday I finally feel the freedom to write again.   I’ve wanted to blog for weeks, but I was asked to speak again on widowhood and the church up at Faith.   For whatever reason, I could NOT get that presentation together until the last minute.   It has just been hanging over my head for weeks as Nov. 19 approached!   But I did get it done and I presented yesterday. Actually, the whole day was just nice.   I went up to the college as soon as I dropped the kids off.   This way I was able to join David for chapel.   I had not been to a Faith chapel service since I was student there.   In fact, the last time I attended chapel there, Paul would have been sitting beside me. They had an excellent speaker.   David and I hung out in the student lounge area and then he attended the class with me.   I wasn’t a bit nervous this time about presenting.   I spoke for a solid hour and the kids had some good questions afterwards. Then, David and I went to lunch.   He expressed to me th

Monday I think I’m ready to go to bed.   Too bad I’ve got a good 3-4 hours before I get to do that, though! This is my shopping week.   It used to be a shopping day, but now during the school year, I have to spread it out over a week because of subbing.   I don’t feel right turning down jobs just to go shopping.   I did get some knocked out of the way today.   Tomorrow morning I’m going to run to the bank before having to pick up Ben to go to Iowa City for a consult on his wisdom teeth.   I’m hoping we can put off that surgery until spring break or hopefully even next summer.   I think after the girls’ therapy appt. on Wed, I will pick up groceries from a Walmart online order and then I might be able to wrap things up Friday after Ben’s Special Olympics bowling tournament.     This is my life – just hectic, all around. *************************** I didn’t work at all last week which was really unusual.  In fact, I was concerned because a week earlier I had been informed th